Substitute

So what of the ideals we place on ourselves? The "checklist", so to speak, of people we surround ourselves with. The friends or family. Does anyone ever truly match our criteria?

Or do we just find the closest match and wait for something better fitting to come along?

I know the feeling that you're simply a substitute, and the feeling of being relieved of your duties as the right person came along. It's not a good feeling.

It got me thinking about the other people in my life. Are they truly there for me, caring and giving, or are they simply playing the part?

My family have to, because that is the role of family, it's not something you choose, you are born into it.

But the people i chose to have in my life, the ones who make me smile, or be a better person, or offer support. Are they real? If i stopped, would they stop? Is unrequited love really possible? Or is it a mutual thing. I love you for loving me, when it seems no one else can?

I don't believe in the generalism of love. I believe for every person in your life, you feel something different. No two feelings are the same. Stronger feelings may be what others call love. Others call Lust, Love. And the differences between love and being in love, are different to every person, if different at all.

Your first "love" is always going to be with you, it is not something you get over. Someone who is everlasting in your head and your heart.

Then there are the people who claim to be in love, because it's what they know they should be feeling. They play the part, and once they realise, it's already too late. Or for those who never realise, is this good or bad? Can you trick yourself into feeling something?

So how do we know we've found the right and real thing? How do we know we aren't just a substitution until something better comes along. There are no certainties in the game of "love", but does that mean we should never play the game?

"If i gave you my heart, would you just play the part?
Or tell me it's the start of something beautiful?"